忙里偷闲一下下

哈哈哈哈，今天十二号咯
再过几天你们就会活生生地站在我面前唱歌给我听！！！
想到就觉得兴奋
这几天忙到天昏地暗
今天还翘课只为多睡一个钟
想要见到你们的念头一直推动着我前进
虽然有一些不称心如意的事发生
没办法嘛，生活就是这样
但，只要我想到你们
嘴角就会不自觉上扬
再辛苦都是值得的
虽然只有短短的几小时，对我而言也足够了
不要求多才不会失望
我很讨厌离别的感觉，不怎么想要接受几个钟后我们就要挥手道别
无所谓，以后见面的机会一定会有的！我相信！
今天首尔做为第一站向海外出发
男人们，你们真的很赞！不愧是我所迷恋的男人
首尔站加油！马来西亚站万岁！
期待你们的到来，宝贝们！！！
鸡冻~ing

希望一切事情顺利，不要打扰我们约会（合十拜拜）

chiong chiong chiong!

i didn't realise that the time now is around 5am
finally i m done with the sucky moral report~
at 1st, according to what i plan moral can finish before 3rd october but my processor is a bit slow motion la
feel that i m so "moral" after 1 whole day
sit in front of laptop for more than 10 hours continuosly, my mind become blur

so decided to go out sing k with brother bong n cy
from 12am-2am
and then reached in utp around 4am if not mistaken
never went out so late before
it is the first time i sing k for tis sem
and
1st time also sing k with sexymama
mama, ur voice is truly nice (sounds like a lady's voice too)-->sexy watt LOL
one of the kaki sing k is MIA, bcoz he choose to dig stones instead of sing k LOL
so when his song appeared on the tv scree, i called him and showed off to him that we are singing his song
on the way back we were planning about the holiday trip
i m quite looking forward to our holiday trip, so mama faster plan ya =)
overall, a little bit of joy make my lonely night interesting. so when is our next k session?



~~~teng teng teng, our group photo~~~


~~~LOL~~~


~~~mama is so concentrate in singing~~~

BUT, i felt a bit sorry to my lab member, a nice maly guy
he asked me to help him find theory but i replied "erm, can u find others? i m busy with moral report"
then he did not reply me at all
argh, wat m i doing!!!
at the moment i was just a bit annoyed coz they said they will finish it before friday and sent to me
but today he said just get started with it, omg
u should keep ur promise once u make it but i know those promise that come from u ppl usually ends up with nothing
words are always prettier than actions.
tats y i was mad when he asked me to find the theory while i was having brain-storming session with beloved moral.
slowly, i felt guilty of wat i did and sympathy to the poor guy.
i think he is angry with me becoz he din reply my message and i did not receive any report in my mail box
becoz i did the 1st report all on my own, so tis time they said they do but ends up in tis situation
tis is my 1st time of not doing any lab reports since i enter utp (proud lol)
zzzz, how o?
that guy is nice, just tat i cant control myself at the moment, very very very sorry.
bcoz of tat again, i watch a small part of concert in guilt, argh!
try to ask him again in the morning, see if he need my help.
good luck to myself
good luck to my friends who are helping us to buy tickets, hopefully everything will be fine and getting settle down.

night!

moral report lol

while doing dairy part of the moral report,
i think it makes my job easier to straight away copy and paste my diary here XD
since i wan to write about the experience of the field-trip so much but time is so constraint for me to rewrite every details
and then come out with 1 conclusion-- CnP is the best way, indeed.
hmmm, i m not tat satisfy with the contents la, because it is used for academic purpose, cannot crap. so mayb some days i m freaking free n nothing to do i will try to rewrite it hahahahahaha

here we go:

Running diary of the big day!
On 25th September morning, our group members have been departed to the supermarket nearby the campus to buy some daily used, food and stationeries before we paid our visit to Agape Family. After that, it took about an hour time for us to reach safely at the destination. When we reached there, I saw the community seemed like waiting for us with surprising sight. There are around 16 of them which can be subdivided into 15 boys and a girl. At the moment I stepped in the home, I had a feeling that I visited to the camp of national service because most of the friends there are having shaven head. We considered them as new friends because they are not children that stayed in the orphanage home. Instead, they are just a few years old younger than us.
We greeted the friends there and handed over the stuffs that we brought to the volunteer worker, Winnie. The ice-breaking session started by introducing each other’s name and hometown. I could not really remember their names as they just told the short form of their name instead of full name. I am worried with that because they did not addressing each other by proper name as name plays a significant role in every individual’s life on how people treasure each other. In order to know each other more, we played personality-guessing game by observing physical outlook among us. At first they were blur with our instructions and we had to repeat it for a few times only they could understand. Patience is needed to teach them. I am glad that there is someone who is as kind as the person incharge of the home to set up this home and assist the teenagers to back to the right path.
During the gaming session, a few members and I got the chance to talk about the organization and background of the home with Winnie. From there, I felt a bit upset because before entered the home, the friends there were wasting their youth time involving in vandalism or having discipline problem. Some of them even came from broken family. The Agape Family is a home that provides them shelter. They have home-schooling in which tuition teachers are offered to teach them. They also learn to be independent in taking care of their life. At the moment, I was thinking how lucky I am to have a complete family and got a lot of people who love me. At the same time, I was influenced by the laughter from those friends who are playing games. It impressed me because they enjoyed the games that we planned. Sincerely, I hope that they can always having such laughter and joy in their life.
Next, we continued with sharing session. It was a bit shock that they did not know what is their dream when we requested. Life is directionless without dreams and ambitions. So we guided them with some advisory words to encourage them not to give up themselves regardless how poor the situation is. In the session, I found out that they are talented. They know how to cook and playing musical instrument. Winnie told us that they prepared their daily meals on their own. What a surprise for me! A boy name “Zhao” is recognized as the cooker by his friends. I learnt that strong friendship is a must throughout a person’s life especially when you are in suffering. They help each other when doing cleanliness of the home and cooking. Apart from that, singing session is the climax of the trip. We sang a few songs with piano and guitars as background music which are played by them. Everyone is fully immersed into the cheerful melodious. Before we back, they expressed their gratefulness by thanking us to visit them. It was a touching instant to me because the way they thank us is so sincere.
What they need is love and care instead of material needs. May God bless them always and guide them back to the correct path in their life. Overall, our moral field-trip is a great success. Our efforts are converted into infinite happiness. The memory will last long in my mind. If I were given a second chance, I would choose to visit to this place again.

知足了，好吗？

我应该是改性了，不是那个性而是这个性
现在迟一点睡都不能，时间一到眼睛就自动自发地要闭起来
也许这也应正了我平时讲的“人老了，不中用”
随着年龄的增长，精力也大不如以前（讲到很像我很老酱，==）
就是不认老啦，女人就是酱的咯
明明现在累到要死，但难得有灵感
不写又觉得浪费

人永远不会知足，一个字包含所有的意思--贪
给你一尺，你要一丈
手中握着想要的东西，眼睛却开始瞄他人手上的东西，心里盘算着要如何把那东西弄到手
唉，人啊人，真的是贪得无厌

没错，那是有点不公平
也许是这里的办事效率差吧 （习惯就好）
但没有不要一直往那边看吧？
大家都等了这样久才盼到，理应感恩
为什么还一直念同样的东西？
现在应该看看自己的筹码才来打算
把眼前的重要事解决先才来做其他打算也不迟不是吗？
况且，我个人认为啦那个很没有必要咯
虽然是很爽啦，但我应该还算存有一点理智的人
只要能让我见到、听到
我就心满意足了，不会多想
往往好运总会在你最不在意的时候眷顾你
上天是公平的
当你得到越多，你失去的也就越多
而我不想还没尝试得到的喜悦就感受着失去的痛
我也不想眼睁睁看着手中的希望破灭
那种感觉真的很惨
我没那个本事和能耐去支撑我自己
理智点吧，朋友！
小小的心容不下大大的愿望
超出负荷后果可是不堪设想哦

happiness

i used to remember last time i have posted the following sentence as my fb status
"happiness is conserved, it cannot be created or destroyed but it changes from one form to another"
does it make sense?? i was wondering
since it can't be made, does it mean that the amount that is created will be in constant too?
in other word, you cant be too happy or too sad

well, last saturday we went out for moral project.
we had a lot of fun on that day. on the way to shabu2, sharon said today is so happy, tmr will cry.
i was thinking about wat she said and keep praying that i will remain happy for the next day.
but unfortunately, that night/morning around 2.30am, i was stunned by the article that said the fan meeting will be held on sunday.
(until now i still very helpless about that and dunno what is my next step)
at the afternoon of the next day i tried to call sis, i know she is quite unhappy that i m going to do that but no one can stop me.
my mood was very down because the one that i trust the most did not support me in what i m doing, i know its a bit crazy but i just cant stop to do that.
while listening to the song, sis sms me and my tears dropped when i read the content.
so helpless and hopeless all of a sudden!
seeing that my hope is nearly gone soundly, BUT i wont let it happen no matter how!
i need to figure out the ways to go on and make it comes TRUE!

now, what i can do is praying hard that nothing happen to disrupt my plan that i hoping for such a long time!

我对高跟鞋的看法

有一段时间没写东西了，没办法刚开学，忙
人就是很矛盾，我在忙的时候特别想写东西
闲到发慌的时候就不想写>.<

开始咯
最近好像很流行男扮女装
男人好像觉得女人很好当
有的扮起来还比女人漂亮，卖笑笑
他们能弄到三围都有
身材甚至比一个标准女人还好
堪称魔鬼身材
让我惊讶的是，男人穿着高跟鞋也能平稳地走路
因为脚着地的面积很小，有时可能连站都站不稳，何况是走路
但女人真的有这么好当吗？
下一世你试试看不就知道了咯

高跟鞋本是女人的最爱
不论细跟、粗跟，只要有跟就好
因为它能修饰整体视觉效果，让一个女人看起来更高挑更高贵
女人们爱死它了不是吗？
比较矮的女人起高跟鞋有种瞬间长高的喜悦
高的人穿起它根本是高人一等
看，这双鞋很美咯


但是，女人不论做什么事都要付出代价！
高跟鞋的确是很美没有错
物极必反
穿久了就会像一下的照片--脚趾外翻
丑毙了
因为鞋子的前段这么小又窄
脚板好像要挤在一起才能穿
所以穿久了脚板就变形咯
我还蛮佩服那些穿着高跟鞋出门逛街的人
要走酱远，鞋子又酱高，脚不痛咩？
还有高跟鞋穿久了还会损害脊椎
至于怎样有害我就不大清楚啦


对我而言咧，我当然喜欢高跟鞋啦
毕竟我也是女人吧
这种鞋子我是有好几双啦，但好像都用来排美酱
穿的机会可以讲是少之又少
原因？
因为我还算得上高
如果再穿高鞋，感觉好像巨人跟周围的人格格不入
毕竟我周围的人都和我差不多高嘛
但，有时看那些模特儿都穿高跟鞋伸展台，弄到我心痒痒
心里会想，他们都这么高了也能穿，为什么我不能
还记得上次学校活动有人跟我讲过“都长酱高了还穿高跟鞋做么”
=，=，爱美是女人的天性你不懂啊？
所以咧，长得高到底是好是坏我也不清楚咯
有时还挺羡慕那些能小鸟依人的女子
毕竟她们小小只，男人都爱嘛

回来正题
很多原因为什么我不常穿高跟鞋
一，刚才提到了本人的身高关系
二来就是我的脚板问题咯
人大只咯，脚就大咯（重申一下，我是高不是大只）
高鞋前面酱小，我的脚板又酱阔，要怎样穿？
不是我没试过，上次去kl活动完了就直接穿高跟鞋去走shopping咯
因为没带鞋去换，结果咧脚是痛到没话讲
一回到家，整个脚板能踩到地的感觉真的很爽
所以没必要的时候，我都尽量少穿
虽然它真的很美啦
我羡慕那些能穿高鞋到处走的人，在utp也有看到一些女生穿高鞋上课
但是，羡慕归羡慕，我并不想尝试
有时想想下，上课要走酱远，何必虐待自己？
所以我的选择是--平底鞋
哈哈哈哈哈哈
虽然视觉效果没有高跟鞋来得强，但是好穿舒服就好
我曾跟大姐讲过，“我走实际派，不走时尚风”
嘻嘻
平底鞋也不赖嘛，走远的路程脚又不会受罪，脚趾不会外翻，脊椎没问题
平底鞋最适合不过了

结论--做回自己，做一个世界上独一无二的自己。
上天把你朔造成这类型，你就是这类型
不论你怎样改造，你始终还是和原来的你一样

情绪跟着走

我想我应该是想宝贝们想疯了
但，这是仙后的职责！
在外人眼里也许这很疯狂，
无所谓，我喜欢就是喜欢！
甚至是爱死他们了
谁管得着？？
因为他们已在我生命里占了一席之位
本来今天是很轻松的一天
早上七早八早起来煮菜燕，稀奇咧？
我不只会吃还会煮XD
下午出去回来头就痛到要死
刚刚又被那些新闻吓倒半死
有没有搞错哦，你们黑帮跟我宝贝什么事？
因为你们乱搞，搞到大家人心惶惶
弄到我很不爽咯
不过这次的新闻让我联想到之前的cj还有黑帮的消息
原来是这么一回事
真的很乱来咯，看，现在什么都没有你们甘愿了咯
我的心情就跟着这些新闻又上又下
疯狂咧
没关系，习惯就好！
毕竟我只是初级的
现在，只能衷心的希望他们能渡过总总难关回到大家的眼前！
不要给了我们希望后又残忍地毁了它
我们会承受不住的
宝贝们一定要加油
仙后们一定会等着的
谁也不能放弃谁！
只要男人乖，红家女人绝不爬墙！
这是我们的承诺
别欺骗我们哦
希望雨过天晴，明天会有好消息！
hwaiting!