what i have learnt from you~~

yesterday night i was planning for pangkor trip while chit chatting with some friends
so, i was telling a friend of mine about my plan
dunno why, i feel not that excited because mot much people are going
but yet, we still insist to go hehehehe
i think it is still fun for us if just a few of us go pangkor, flexible watt
while chit chatting with him, i said "i start to wonder how is the trip since most of my funny frens din go"
then he replied " over this year, havent u learn anything from me???
JUst do it
dont think so much"
ha, as if i suddenly awake from dream after looked at what he said
very true! why i have to care so much? just do it as long as i happy and won't affect others
seriously i love the phrase so much, it impressed me
actually i learnt a lot from him and i did some changes to myself also but yet it did not last long lol, sorry^^
but he is a nice friend for me, beside lok la
still remember last semester he used to hear me nag about those difficulties that i faced and of course he gave me advices also
"just smile, nothing is big deal but a smile" this is what he always told me
thanks a lot, friend!

上课第一天

昨天星期二，我才开始上课
本来星期一也是有课的，但是延迟开课
早知道就不要酱早回来
这个学期的课都很“新”
都是以前没有听过的课，对我而言罢了啦
因为这个学期的课才是真正chemical engineering的开始
早上的心情是不错啦，第一天上课嘛好像新年酱咯
虽然上到很爱睡，因前一晚迟睡，但感觉还不错
第一堂课是structure programming bla bla bla
新东西
第二堂课，material and energy balances（应该是酱念吧）
讲师印度来的，蛮有分量
经验应该蛮多的，他的课是目前比较好上的
到了下午上moral，真的是炸到
像上英文课酱，学生都在比英文
学生太多了，老的小的都有，很杂
像巴杀
讲师什么都没有介绍就开课，到现在也不懂他叫什么名，管他啦
上他的课很压力咯，因为一直要人家去发表那种
而我这种不会临场发挥的就惨咯，再加上本人的英文都不懂有没有半桶水
上moral的时候应该要挖个洞躲起来
过后上那个fluid mechanics
哎哟，那个讲师很像路人甲
lok讲像lab demo
可能是因为她穿着的关系啦，看起来没有酱专业
她讲课的速度有点慢，一个礼拜两个小时，应该会很催眠
我不是在课堂睡觉的那种，所以我玩电话咯，结果后面的马来仔就看我玩 ==
至于她教的怎样就要看往后的课了
今天早上为了一个小时的课，又是八点课
因为第二组，只有我和ruth有课
其他人都在睡觉，第一次我去上课婉芳在睡觉！ lol
这次的课程表真的很头大，到现在都排不出
讲师喜欢喜欢就改时间，上课的时间会撞到
应该要叫他们来帮学生排 ^^

glass room

i want my privacy back la
the new room is not as comfortable as the room in v2
the room is smaller compare to the previous room
if the curtain at wan fang's side is not put down, the neighbours from the opposite block will know every happening in my room
what are we doing, where we keep our things, the way i sleep they all know
aiyo aiyo
room in v2 dusty but i got privacy =)
room in v4 is quite clean but i lost privacy
that's why nothing is perfect
some how i miss v2D-309 XD

我要我的双人床

回到学校了
本来是打算今天早上自己搭车，但星期四晚上才发现要搬房间
跟妈商量叫她载我回
真的很舍不得离家，虽然来回了酱多次
但我还是很粘家
回到这里，新的房间，完全陌生的感觉还蛮不习惯
现在的房间没有隐私可言，以前还至少有一块大木板遮住彼此
现在没有得遮
你做什么我看得到，我做什么你都知道
不怎么喜欢
还有每天五次的concert,天啊
但想到接下来的几个学期不用烦搬village房间就勉强接受
果然，事情没有十全的
说真的，我不想回来
没有妈妈陪我、没有爸爸在身边照顾，我真的很不惯
一个人的生活我不要
虽然我吃到酱大了
我要姐姐陪我睡，我不要自己睡
我自己的床有我的宝贝们，这里什么都没有
床也不是我的
看到妈妈要回去，我不舍得，我哭
虽然爸讲又不是没得回来不用哭
但我就真的很想跟你们一起回
妈妈看我哭，她自然会跟着我哭
所以她回的时候不敢看我
我一直跟自己讲不能哭，但真的很没用
看着她的背影一直流泪
发现我来到utp泪腺特别发达
动不动就流泪
太不喜欢这里了，陌生感太重了
但我能怎样？
拿人家的钱没权利讲话
我真的很想回家，今晚很寂寞
又要开始适应寂寞的日子
妈妈，谢谢你酱辛苦花酱多精神载我到酱远读书
我的内心真的很感激也很愧疚
拜托，往后的日子房间的事不要再让我烦了
每次sem break都要烦这些有的没有的
真的很不爽
回到这个不属于我的世界，我会学着找到灯光
不让父母操心，我不要再迷路了
喜欢不喜欢都好，还是要接受
只是今晚真的很寂寞。。。
我很想你们，家人就是我的生命，你们是我的一切
我真的很爱很爱你们
我好想家！

alien vs human

i always feel that i am not belong to utp
dunno why, this feeling will come to my mind and it's getting stronger
it is so difficult for me to get used myself to the hectic life, tons of assignemnts and tests
one and a half year, 3 sems i have gone through so far
i managed to survive myself, thanks Guan Yin Ma ^^
utp campus life is so alien to me, o should say i m the alien who landed on human planet
frens, not really have any (close frens i mean)
hmmm, i even think of want to withdraw from utp after knew the result, ridiculous
i just told lok, "that result destroy my confident that i build up slowly"
i was so hardworking during last sem if compare with the 2 previous sems but it ends up the worst, how disappointing i am
again, because of the result problem i felt utp is so far and i dun even think of want to go back
haha, my family waste a lot of time in couselling me (many times)
"result is not everything, life comes first"
so i have to enjoy my life to the maximum but not learn to love utp ya XD
got one senior told me, "you are the alien from sesame street, that's why utp not ngam you" LOL
make sense also because i like elmo
alright, whatever it is i need to learn on how to enjoy life
seriously i need to figure out the correct study way to make sure that i wont sink for the next sem, good luck to myself!
i need a lot of luck yo~~~
Ti Gong po pi po pi~~
Guan Yin Ma po pi po pi~~

因为小小屁股，我去了警察局

可怜可怜

警察局咯
吃到酱大第一次上警局
当然不是做坏事啦
我可是奉公守法的好公民
哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈哈（是咩）
我不杀人也不放火，当然是好公民啦
话说昨天
我在保姆家
中午突然接到我老母的电话
“喂肥的，爸爸的车后面玻璃破咧”
“哈，做么酱”
“不懂咧，我要回来拿东西看到咯，害我都不敢进去，我打给爸爸叫他回来看了”
听了电话怕都怕死了
当时的我还抱着圆妹
不久爸打来
“肥的，你的相机放在那里”
“在XXXX里面咯”
“酱你回来拿给我一下，我去载你”
“哦”
看到小小屁股的玻璃碎到酱，真的是吓倒
爸一直讲是那些人割草有石头飞进来打到，那个玻璃很敏感的
不懂咧，不怎么能说服我
因为那些碎片里又看不到石头
我很怕，因为我在猜想是不是被人砸
可是我们又没有得罪人
好公民嘛
不敢想酱多
最近很多事弄到我很烦，上次是电话，现在是车
到底做么咧？
晚上就跟爸去报案咯
那边的警察的工好像很空酱，进去的时候看到三四个警察躺在地上看电影
一个坐在柜台，我爸念一句，他打一局，打字又很慢，讲话不开口，像一开口金就会落出来酱
短短的报告用了30-45分钟才出来
我还看到一个告示“dilarang merokok di kawasan pejabat pertanyaan"
真的是讲好听，柜台桌上就有一个烟灰缸，刚才看电影的人站在门外面抽烟，整个办公室都是烟味
马来西亚的文化
今天早上去了麻坡的警察局买报告
哇靠，进到里面烟味很重，够力
讲不能抽烟但是好像在抽报仇酱

see how much i miss u~

actually this title is modified from 1 novel that i read few years ago
which is--see how much i love you
ya, of course i love you^^
last few days mum was not around
kinda boring and quiet because we 2 like to crap and gossip XD
sometimes when my mood was not that good i will show my dark face to her, very sorry
when the days mum was not by my side, i felt so lonely
then, today before she came back she called me
i heard mum's voice, just realised that i miss her so much
after a short chat, suddenly she said "i love you"
hahahahaha
of course i replied the same words "i love you"
then we 2 laughed at there
sounds funny,i just realised since i have grown up for so many years i never express that i love her through words, omg so guilty
tis short conversation lead me to my memory when the first time i have to leave home to utp
the night before departed i was crying while packing, we 2 were so emotional
the next morning, before i leave i cried again (==)so my mum hug me and said "dun cry"
father was there too, his eyes were full with tears but he managed to control it
of course, this make me cried even worse because we seldom express our love physically LOL
i was so touching at that moment
now, i have been left to utp for around one year, but everytime when i think of the situation that i was in my mum's arms, my tears will drop